Bile tah aku nk maju...

rase macam nk menangis bile arini terpakse mintak duit mak bayar loan keta...

terase aku ni beban..da 28+ tahun aku idup ni..asyik jadi beban mak aje..

patut aku yg senang kan mak..tp rezeki aku belum terbukak lagi..

masih kt tmpt lama...

bile tgk kwn2 lain berjaya...hidup senang..rase cemburu gile...

tp entah la...sabar dan tawakkal ajela jawapan nye...

aku nk redha ngn sume ni...nk jadi org yg sabar+redha+ikhlas melalui semua ni..bukan nye mudah..

rase pahit nk telan...tp itulah hidup...ermm aku harap ade pintu rezeki yang sentiasa akan terbuka untuk aku...

setakat ni aku belum sampai tahap kebulur tak makan..kire ok la tu..ade lagi nikmat tuhan bagi...

sedey betul sbb terpakse susah kn mak...mcm2 beban mak tanggung...da la skg mak pun da pencen..kdg2 mkn kt umah pun jimat2...sedey aku tgk...

aduh...air mata ni..tlg la jgn mengalir...

Rupa2nye..

ermm..da dekat nk sebulan aku try biz kain ela on9..(http://thelovelythread.blogspot.com)
bkn sng rupenya..nk wat biz ni..kena ade bnyk effort dan mase..tp hasil nye..tkde seberape sgt..
aduhai..ditambah plak ngn tkde keja skg..makin rase biz ni menyesakkan pikiran..
kdg2 rase serabut plak..tp tkpela...pengalaman..
di saat2 tgh hangat nk laku kan kain...tetibe nmpk bnyk plak blog2 pesaing yg lagi bagus2...terase lagi down...down...down to earth..hihihihi..

But life goes on...if we are ready to whatever come next..we will survive in the other millennium...juz be strong and hold your faith to Allah...
the key is patience and tawak'kal...
ermm however..when you come to the dead end..and there's no one there to support you..you feel so lone and losing hope...

so far..i have everyone i need to give me moral and "financial" support...and i am really grateful to Allah..to make all these people exsits in my life...

and the time have come to be responsible and independent where you learn and grow to be someone that anyone can be depend on and trust...it's time to change Acak...